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Sunday, January 30, 2011

No Pain! No Gain!

Yes.. sometimes running doesn't look pretty.  Sometimes it's not effortless.  Sometimes it's just down right HARD!  (at least for me it is!)

I've learned sooo much about myself since I've begun running.  But the one thing that is soo evident in the picture below is that I am FIGHTING to loose EVERY single POUND!  And I am not prepared to stop until I get to my goal weight.

First 5k race of the year, results: 28:24.. my personal best. 

Friday, January 28, 2011

Exciting News! .. and no I'm not pregnant!

I have a bit of exciting news.. I've applied for a job!  Eek yup!  I can't go into too much detail but all I can say.. is it's only party time ... I have an interview on Monday!  It's related to my field.  We will wait and see if this is a door God is opening of us and my family.  I am excited and nervous all in the same moment!  I know that if I do get this job.. and it will a bit of juggling with homeschooling Ava, keeping the home running and working.. but I am soo up for *another* challenge.  Again.. it's only part time and the days/times that I go in will be flexible..

I will keep y'all posted.. just pray.. if this is God's will then open the door and if it is not.. to close it.

We will wait and see!

Checking-in / Checking-out

I don't know what my problem is.. I really don't.  I think I have 'life/writers/tired/crazy busy, always noise in my head block'!!!  Again.. not to sound whiny.. but I do have lots going on.. just can't formulate it enough to write it down.  OK.. but I'm going to give it a go.. I am going to *attempt* to catch up on posts.

Running is going well.. I've been running longer.. I'm up to 45 minutes.. ya!  It's exciting and boring all at the same time!  Say what!  I totally can't believe I am up to that time.. I can see a DIM light at the end of the tunnel.. perhaps I will be able to run the entire 10k race in the spring!  But it's also kinda boring some days!  Some days I just feel like I am flying.. and then there are other days where I am running and it's only been 15 minutes.. I look down at my watch.. and think to myself "sigh.. another 30 minutes of this!".  I've been running with a super dear friend on Wednesday nights.  And I LOVE it!  She talks, I listen.  It's great!  I chime in every so often.. but I just like to listen and the company!  It's what I like to call 'running bonding'! ☺  But I am lovin' running with someone soo much that I am starting to not like running by myself!  Oh.. well .. I'm also getting a bit frustrated.  I have been loosing weight but not a the same momentum that I was before Christmas.  I think my period is really starting to mess with my brain!  I hate being bloated and tired the week before.. and then the week of.. I feel even bigger.  We will see after this week.  I weight myself on Tuesday's.. so I am REALLY hoping I am down another 1.5lbs.  All I keep saying in my head is "167lbs.. 167lbs..167lbs".  I always kinda have 'mini-goals' in my head.  Literally pound by pound!  I am hoping I will be down to 160 by my birthday in March.

Another aspect of my workout that I am really starting to be consistent with is ab work.  I've been doing lower and upper ab work.  I am seeing some small results.  A *BIT* of definition on the abdomen and my tummy is looking a bit flat as well.  I'm thinking perhaps because I am building some muscle I am not seeing the pounds drop off on the scale.  My body is changing.. but when you have ALOT of weight to loose .. you REALLY want to see those numbers go down.  But I will continue to work hard.  I WON'T give up now.  I am starting to enjoying feeling a bit lighter.  I am starting to feel ALIVE.

So that's my running up date.. oh so I guess that is my 'checking-in' portion of this post! 

The 'checking-out'... I really feel like I am going through another transformation.  God is really working on me.  I am starting to feel fulfilled at home and really ENJOYING my time home with the kids.  As I've mentioned in my last post.. I am really working hard in living in the moment.  Therefore I think because I am focusing on God and trying to hear and put into action what he is trying to show me I feel less and less the urge to look for I'll call it "attention" from the cyber world.. and my computer.  Does that make sense?  I am realizing that I may not have many friends.. and most of my family lives far away.  But what I DO have here is my church, my husband, my children, my in-laws and some very wonderful new friends.  It takes time.. and I am accepting and adjusting to that.  So there.. I am happy with life.. so I don't feel I NEED to write everything that I am doing on my blog or facebook.  That's not to say we are doing all these super wonderful things every single day.. we are just living.  Just breathing.. in and out.  Enjoying the simple things thats happen in the day.  Watching the kids play outside in the snow.  Making muffins together.  Me ACTUALLY SITTING in the middle of the afternoon and watch a movie with the kids.  Tickling Linden and listening to him laugh. Yeah we do stuff.. outdoor skating, theatre classes, getting together with friends, evening programs.. but I am just learning to just BE.

So I am not intentionally trying to hide away from my blog.. I am just trying to prioritize my life.  Hope everyone is well.. and I just LOVE reading up on what everyone is up to.  I also pray for y'all you know!  God is soo good.. he is always with us.  Seeking a special relationship with YOU!  And ME!

Blessings..... oh and YAAAAAAHOOOOO it's Friday!!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Alive and Well.. and feeling out of sorts

Hi all!

Although I don't have many 'followers'... I feel bad that I have neglected my blog.  It's not that I haven't wanted to write.  I've been having some technical difficulties both with the 'hardware' and me!  I've downloaded this writer program that another fellow blogger suggested.. and although it is super easy and quick to use.. that hasn't really solved my problem of updating my blog (visually).  Anyway... I'm going to keep plugging away at it.

I've also had trouble putting my words down.. I've been soo busy.. but it's not anymore busy than I was before.  Does that make sense?  A bit of an update...

Our Christmas was wonderful!  Hubby and I really tired to keep it simple this year.  Keeping the focus on birth of Christ.. because that IS what Christmas is about.  We enjoyed Christmas plays, looking at the homes with all their Christmas lights.  Sledding, hot chocolate.  Christmas movie nights.  Getting together with friends and family.  It was really one of the best Christmas's by far!

I gained 3lbs over Christmas *sigh*.. but I guess that is pretty good considering I could have gained A LOT more!  I enjoyed cookies, wine and lots of other decant Christmas foods.. but I did still try to watch what I ate.  I think the biggest contributor of putting the weight on was that I wasn't able to get out and run as much.  We were just soo busy - seemed like every night we were out doing something or having someone over.  So I did get out of my routine of running 4 times a week.  But I am happy to say.. now that we are part way through January.. I've lost the 3lbs and an additional 1.5lbs.  So my official number is 169.5lbs total loss = 32.5lbs!  Yay!  I can't believe it!  I've adjusted what I want my goal weight to be. Originally it was 150lbs but now I'd really like to be 145lbs.  So I have 24.5lbs to go.  It's going to take a lot of work (like it hasn't been up till now! ☺).  But I am eager to reach it by the summer time!  I am now running 3 times a week, and would like to get back to 4.  From there I'd like to increase it to 5 times.  I am 'training' to run a 10k race this May.  I am soo nervous, excited and I doubt myself every time I drive 10k!  I think to myself.. 'that is soooo far!!!'

Homeschooling.. well that has been challenging to get started up again after being off for a few weeks over Christmas Break.  It's been hard for me to get motivated but more so for Ava.  She's been complaining about doing her school work, and although she is doing well I don't want to get behind.  We have a curriculum that we follow.... and I'd like to cover most if not all the content.  I've had some talks with Ava.. explained to her that she is very blessed to be able to do school at home.  To have such a flexible schedule that she is able to go and play outside for an hour or so.. come back in read, have lunch.. take a nap if she needs to.  Watch a movie.. go outside again.  Or spend some one on one time with me.  I think she is starting to see the benefits.. but she is only 6. 

I think another reason I've had a hard time to sit and post on my blog is because I have been praying.  Praying to God to help me live in the moment.  I know I know you hear that everywhere.  But I really do get lost in all my 'to do' lists that I really don't enjoy the moment or the day.  I've been praying to be thankful for where I am RIGHT NOW in my life.  To enjoy the time I have with my children... to watch them grow, learn and be a positive mommy roll model.  I can be such a worry wort.  Wondering, worrying, trying to plan ahead and ahead and ahead.  That I miss what awesome experiences I could be enjoying right now.  So I've been trying to not spend too much time on the computer... I feel like such a slug when the kids want to play a game or watch a movie with me.. and I say 'one second.. one second.. one second'.. then the moment has passed.  I do find it hard though sometimes at night when I am trying to catch up on my e-mails and they still want me to sit and watch a movie with them.  Some days I do find it difficult because I am with them all day... but I have to just learn to prioritize.. give them my energy and time when they are awake..

hummm what else.. I think that is about it... there may be a few big changes happening for our family, but I can't go into details right now.  Again I am praying and asking God to open the door if this is what we should be doing.. or just close it so I know I am where I need to be.  That's it.. sorry to keep anyone hanging.. but that's all I can say right now.

Hope everyone is enjoying this cold weather.. oye... just checked the weather network -19 degrees with the windchill.  Now that is chilly!  (it was -26 on Monday!)

Happy Mid-Winter Y'all!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Is it my computer? Is it Blogger.com?

OK.. I am getting really frustrated now!  I can barely post.. having trouble adding pictures and now I can't change the design of my page.  Many people have told me they can't post a comment.  And most times they can't even pull up my blog.  Are YOU having trouble with these things?

I've taken off my background.. if I could be successful at it.. I would take down my weight widget and see if that makes a difference.. I don't know if these two things have created a virus or something associated with my blog. 

I am debating switching over to wordpress.  Is wordpress 'good'  I've never used it... I'm going to see if there is a way to e-mail blogger... if I can even get that far...
Sooo frustrated.. I want to post soo many things!  arrrrahhhhhhh