I don't know what my problem is.. I really don't. I think I have 'life/writers/tired/crazy busy, always noise in my head block'!!! Again.. not to sound whiny.. but I do have lots going on.. just can't formulate it enough to write it down. OK.. but I'm going to give it a go.. I am going to *attempt* to catch up on posts.
Running is going well.. I've been running longer.. I'm up to 45 minutes.. ya! It's exciting and boring all at the same time! Say what! I totally can't believe I am up to that time.. I can see a DIM light at the end of the tunnel.. perhaps I will be able to run the entire 10k race in the spring! But it's also kinda boring some days! Some days I just feel like I am flying.. and then there are other days where I am running and it's only been 15 minutes.. I look down at my watch.. and think to myself "sigh.. another 30 minutes of this!". I've been running with a super dear friend on Wednesday nights. And I LOVE it! She talks, I listen. It's great! I chime in every so often.. but I just like to listen and the company! It's what I like to call 'running bonding'! ☺ But I am lovin' running with someone soo much that I am starting to not like running by myself! Oh.. well .. I'm also getting a bit frustrated. I have been loosing weight but not a the same momentum that I was before Christmas. I think my period is really starting to mess with my brain! I hate being bloated and tired the week before.. and then the week of.. I feel even bigger. We will see after this week. I weight myself on Tuesday's.. so I am REALLY hoping I am down another 1.5lbs. All I keep saying in my head is "167lbs.. 167lbs..167lbs". I always kinda have 'mini-goals' in my head. Literally pound by pound! I am hoping I will be down to 160 by my birthday in March.
Another aspect of my workout that I am really starting to be consistent with is ab work. I've been doing lower and upper ab work. I am seeing some small results. A *BIT* of definition on the abdomen and my tummy is looking a bit flat as well. I'm thinking perhaps because I am building some muscle I am not seeing the pounds drop off on the scale. My body is changing.. but when you have ALOT of weight to loose .. you REALLY want to see those numbers go down. But I will continue to work hard. I WON'T give up now. I am starting to enjoying feeling a bit lighter. I am starting to feel ALIVE.
So that's my running up date.. oh so I guess that is my 'checking-in' portion of this post!
The 'checking-out'... I really feel like I am going through another transformation. God is really working on me. I am starting to feel fulfilled at home and really ENJOYING my time home with the kids. As I've mentioned in my last post.. I am really working hard in living in the moment. Therefore I think because I am focusing on God and trying to hear and put into action what he is trying to show me I feel less and less the urge to look for I'll call it "attention" from the cyber world.. and my computer. Does that make sense? I am realizing that I may not have many friends.. and most of my family lives far away. But what I DO have here is my church, my husband, my children, my in-laws and some very wonderful new friends. It takes time.. and I am accepting and adjusting to that. So there.. I am happy with life.. so I don't feel I NEED to write everything that I am doing on my blog or facebook. That's not to say we are doing all these super wonderful things every single day.. we are just living. Just breathing.. in and out. Enjoying the simple things thats happen in the day. Watching the kids play outside in the snow. Making muffins together. Me ACTUALLY SITTING in the middle of the afternoon and watch a movie with the kids. Tickling Linden and listening to him laugh. Yeah we do stuff.. outdoor skating, theatre classes, getting together with friends, evening programs.. but I am just learning to just BE.
So I am not intentionally trying to hide away from my blog.. I am just trying to prioritize my life. Hope everyone is well.. and I just LOVE reading up on what everyone is up to. I also pray for y'all you know! God is soo good.. he is always with us. Seeking a special relationship with YOU! And ME!
Blessings..... oh and YAAAAAAHOOOOO it's Friday!!