Thursday, December 31, 2009
Christmas 2009 marks the second year that my mom is no longer with us. She passed away five weeks after the birth of Grace. I remember having a moment while I was sitting on the bed nursing Linden this past month - and I was thinking of my mom. She was soo young. And it still seems strange to think she is no longer here. Looking down at Lindens face would at times make me sad because my mom will never have the opportunity to hold and cuddle him as a baby. I know she is in heaven and is well aware of his existence... and what we are doing - but its not the same as having her here ... to tell her face to face what I should have said more often "I love you". And to hug her .. more. My family wasn't and isn't very affectionate.. but I think we are working on that.
And so what frustrates me even more is the family that is here.... the not so good part of Christmas... huh? You might be saying 'I don't get what you are saying... '??? Ok ok - so I never said I was an author... it takes me a bit to get my point across. I'm sure I will get some flak for this post... but I get beyond frustrated with family members that I try to connect with.. let them know I love them.. that I am thinking of them almost daily... that I want to develop of closer relationship with... and well they just brush me off (at least that's how I feel)... and whoever is reading this... (if you are family)... will likely feel convicted by this post and you will know who you are (and no it's not you Adri) ;)
I don't get it.... we are family, lets try to become closer and more involved in each others lives.
So this is the not so good part of Christmas. Family that is far away and that are soo dreadfully missed. Family that put up walls and don't allow me (or the rest of my brew) in. Family that you wished you could have.
To end on a good note: I am soo dedicated to my immediate family. I want Jay, Ava, Gabriel, Grace and Linden to know everyday that I love them. That I would do anything for them. That they can always depend on me. And that I am always always trying my best to be the best mom I can be.
And so Merry Christmas to all my family near and far - you are missed and you are loved.
This was the first year that Ava was really adamant that she had to buy her own gifts for each member of the family (... and anyone she met to be perfectly honest ~ she has such a generous and servant heart). So I thought this was a good teaching moment for several things. Firstly to explain what a budget it. And that the amount you spend isn't what is important, what is important is to let the person know that you care, love and were thinking of them. Secondly it was an opportunity for her to experience what it is like to give a gift... not only to received gifts. She had a lot of fun thinking of what she wanted to buy, shop for them, wrap them and most importantly keep it all a secret! And she did really well! She didn't let any of it slip!
2009 Christmas will also be very memorable for me because it was just fun! I think it was because they kids were more excited this year... and you see their personalities more ~ and that is so exciting and interesting to see! They were excited to play in the snow. They were excited to see the Christmas tree (every morning). They were excited to watch Christmas movies on TV. They were just excited! And to experience that kind of innocent excitement made me excited again!
Over the Christmas holidays we were able to entertain more ~ and that is something Jay and I really enjoy doing. It was wonderful to be able to open up our home to some of our church families and friends. We are starting to feel like we are taking root here and that makes us feel good. It feels good to open up our home and share what God has blessed us with. Hey you can't take it with you.... so you may as well share 'the goods'.
This year also marks Linden's first Christmas ...
So overall this was an amazing Christmas.... but with the good comes the not so good..
Monday, December 21, 2009
So here it is...
~ recipe cards with the Nativity story written on them ~
I also added some fresh tree cuttings to my ceiling fan in the kitchen.... I just love the way this room turned out. I think it feels really cozy and has a kinda cottagey feel!
Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday baby Jesus!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
We have been living in our new home for just over a year now... I would have wished and hoped that we had developed more significant relationships... and we are beginning to and I can see God working in our lives ~ 'knitting' families together.. to further His kingdom ... and that is a good thing! Fellowship, love, depending on one another ~ now doesn't that sounds nice?
And so today after church we were given some gifts.. well to be more truthful we were given gifts to give to Linden! More baby gifts.. and they are ALL sooo thoughtful, much needed and soo lovely. And not to discount any other gifts that were soo wonderfully and loving given to Linden.. but today one especially stood out to me. What 'makes up' a gift? Is it the size? The cost? The amount? No... it's the gift to be thought of... the gift of someones time... and so without further ado...
Hope you enjoyed these pictures.... thank you again Pat... what a wonderful gift :) Blessings!
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
And now.. here is a look at how we decorate and get ready for Christmas, the birth of Christ ...
On coming to the house, they saw the child with his mother Mary, and they bowed down and worshiped him. Then they opened their treasures and presented him with gifts of gold and of incense and myrrh. Matthew 2: 10 & 11
Thursday, December 10, 2009
And finally here is a picture of our first big snow fall... it is a bit hard to make out.. since by the time I got outside it was already dark! (can I just say that these shorter days are just killing me! I already feel like I don't have enough hours in the day!! But once it gets dark.. I just start to shut down... time to slow down, sit by the fire or watch a movie... *sigh*)... anyway back to the picture. Here is a picture of the front of our home.. I really really hope we don't have a green Christmas!!
These are just a few things we've been up to. I have to admit life with four kids can be busy... ok is really really busy! Most days I'm just cruising on coffee ~ and I'm ok with that ;) It's a lot of work, takes a lot of patience, a lot of time... but it's soo worth it! Hope you enjoyed a peek into many of our days..