I was good today. VERY good. NO Halloween candy for this gal. That was TOUGH.. really TOUGH for me. I've been able to continue on my weight loss journey partly because I have been very diligent about not keeping *too* many *treats* in the house. Cut back my baking CONSIDERABLY.. only enough for the kids to have a snack or two.. then they are gone.
This is hard for me.. because I AM SOO IN LOVE WITH CHOCOLATE.. wave a bag of chips under my nose.. and I will snub it off. Dangle some twizzlers.. nope not for me. But CHOCOLATE.. OH MAN!! That kills me! But this morning.. I woke up and told myself 'no Halloween chocolate, candy, treats ANYTHING for me today'.. and I did it. 8:05p and I did it...
I was soo desperate to get this candy down to a normal amount that Monday night I bunked the big bowl in the middle of the table for our small group to enjoy. And they did. And I was glad to get rid of some of the goodies.
I have to say. I know I've come a long way.. because honestly 6 months ago.. I would have cracked.. and cracked and cracked. And I would have thought to myself.. 'well it wasn't meant to be to loose the weight'.. or I would have told myself 'life is about ENJOYING what is around us.. '. Excuses. Excuses. Excuses. I now know.. I was just fooling myself. What I was really saying to myself all those years is.. 'Your not worth the effort. Your not worth the time. Serve others.. and don't bother with yourself'. But I know I am worth it now. I know I need to take care of my body because my husband can not and my children can not. I seriously pray to God continuously to give me strength on the days that I just don't want to be out there. Or the days that I just want to eat and eat and eat. He is my strength.